What day is it??

It's hard to remember what day of the week it is. I was thinking it was Wednesday all morning. My days all run together. I do the same thing day after day. Get up, get the kids up. Run around getting them ready for school. Mariah gets dropped off at her school first then I take the boys to the bus stop and send them on their way. I get about 40 minutes to myself which usually consists of making phone calls, balancing the checkbook and paying some bills. Then I get myself gathered and head off to work. When I get done there the kids are waiting for me at the daycare and we head home to get supper and spend some time doing different things. Fighting with Anthony about homework is almost a guaranteed part of the day. He despises homework. Lol. I get so irritated with the papers the kids bring home. It's always nice to see what they are doing at school, but at the same time I am left with a shitload of papers that I am never sure about throwing out, holding onto for awhile to help them study or keeping for a momento. Seriously, I get stressed out by these trivial things. Lol

I try to get the kids to bed by 8:30 and that itself is a defeat. Mariah is finally going to bed with the boys and sleeping in her own bed. Most of the time, she ends up in my bed sometime thru the night but she is getting better at it.

I'm still with Brad. This relationship is much better than it was the last time I wrote about it. We are doing great. He is working afternoon shifts (which I hate) so I see him about 2 or 3 times a week. He comes over after work, which is late, and I stay up and spend time with him. This past weekend was a memorable one because we got our kids together for the first time. It was very important to both him and I and it makes me love him that much more knowing that he is careful about how he is handling his girls' feelings (he has 2 beautiful little girls 7, and 4 years old), unlike my kids' father-who has had multiple girls in and out of my kids weekend visits with him.

The kids are going thru a lot when it comes to their father. I am trying my best to talk to Anthony and have him open up a little more about his feelings. He is a lot like me. He bottles up his feelings until he literally pops and then all these emotions come out and it makes things harder to deal with. He is getting older and understanding more. I'm not so sure this is a good thing, only because he has more to deal with emotionally now. He started wrestling again. About 3 weeks ago they began their early season practices. This is his 4th year and I am so proud of him. Now, school is a whole different deal for him. He is having a rough time in 4th grade and I feel like a failure of a parent because I know I need to work more with him on his study habits. Again, budgeting time is very hard in life these days. Trying to divide my time at home between 3 kids, fighting for my full attention is a hard role for a mom.

I just looked at the time and *gasp* I have to wash my hair still and it takes forever to straighten...so I better head out and get my day started. I just wanted to take the time to update a little more.

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